hoping for a better me

All these years - (1 year and 5 months to be exact) I have waited for them to "make it up to me" with all the energy I expended trying to make them change or make them pay... and problem with it? I became someone who I am not and worst my actions never get what it wants; it never even evens the score. My actions kept the old wounds from healing and gave pain from the past free rein to shape... where it damaged my life even more. 

yeah and honestly it took me awhile - (lAST NIGHT to be  exact) before I  realized that. :) 

recalling....

Last night I don't know why but my tears kept on falling....Im just too lonely? or  I think maybe thats all  because of that movie ( It takes man and a woman by ms.cat. molina featuring ms. sarah G. and mr. J.lloyd C. ) the movie has some valuable lessons that I think was intended to be molded in the whole aspect of  life.

  1.) Sometimes being the best means being the least.

2.) Be good in times of failure.

3.) Sometime being good is loving the people who hurt you.

3.) Piliin mong magpatawad. Piliin mong magmahal.
Love is a choice. Ganun din ang pagpapatawad.

4.) In reality, it's not a happy ever after but a reality ever after

cONTINUE....

yeah! 4 years almost and yes I admit a lot of things happened.... I became a rebel for no reason at all 

which led me doing some craps... partly I eventually am regretting it until now...but these circumstances/ happenings I believed can never be deleted or changed

some this happenings may even had leaved a scar and I know it is or will be forever in my heart 

but at least those memories that I am carrying contains

a bunch of lesson that may lead me to become a better person someday.

 :)

"You can't make the same mistake twice. The second time you make it, it's no longer a mistake, it's a choice! Deal with the consequences! "

"A healed memory never become a deleted memory"

"Forgiving is not something you do for someone else. It is not even something you do because you SHOULD, forgiving is something that you do for yourself"

happy kiddo

For ds past few months daghan kaayog nahitabo
paspas kaayo tanan..... i don't know kung sakto
pero sakto dgwai.. ambot no comment nlng ko
kay dghan ug kalipay atung mga panahuna
ug dghan pd kasakit... gadungan. pero wa ghapon mismo
ako natagam.. so karun way mahay kay tanan
lesson... pero how i wish. ma okay tanan. ma ok mi tanan
i miss hanging out with them... kana friends unta tanan...
hay pero atleast krn ... happy kid ko...
thank you sa walay humpay na pagsupport n mama
ug n sister nq.. ug sa aq mga "friends" gd...na wa gd mibiya
bisig unsa paq kakatok ug utok nakasabot , gapasensya sa
akong batasan na pirti jd ninduta....  < magbisaya saq ..pasensya . magtuon paq. haha! >

HAPPY KIDDO! #spreadd'love

Pusong Bato by Charice Pempengco

escandalo (IKAW by miss KMF)

please bare with me viewers.haha. im so bored lang gd. :)

#xmasbreak #alone #ikaw #singingmode

Breathe out

How could I move on and forget someone like you....
if every time I tried to stay away from you...
you unexpectedly appear in front of me...>_<
men!

If only I could change the past...
anyways...saying this doesn't mean that I want to change everything that just happened...
I just want to correct every lies that I said... I've done
and maybe change or fix the complications and issues that
has been bothering me for quite sometime.

For months , honestly I really don't know what
I am doing...

men! I really don't know what to do... help!

am'  really crazy. HAHAHA

COURAGE

Courage is a hard thing to figure. You can have courage based on a dumb idea or mistake, but you're not supposed to question adults, or your coach or your teacher, because they make the rules. Maybe they know best, but maybe they don't. It all depends on who you are, where you come from. Didn't at least one of the six hundred guys think about giving up, and joining with the other side? I mean, valley of death that's pretty salty stuff. That's why courage it's tricky. Should you always do what others tell you to do? Sometimes you might not even know why you're doing something. I mean any fool can have courage. But honor, that's the real reason for you either do something or you don't. It's who you are and maybe who you want to be. If you die trying for something important, then you have both honor and courage, and that's pretty good. I think that's what the writer was saying, that you should hope for courage and try for honor. And maybe even pray that the people telling you what to do have some, too.

-michael oher- 

Black & White

  

 For years.....I've been relying my life and time to you
 you knew my secrets, and I also knew yours...
 you accepted and knew every bit of my bad side and good side...but never give a damn word about it..
 Though were miles apart physically...but you never let me feel that way emotionally...
 
 I knew you're not into some cheesy words that can melt someone's heart...
 BUt your actions and efforts that you did for years are much greater ...much much greater...that really tatak in my heart..

 For years you knew that I have this attitude that I love being hated by others..
 I demanded and make reklamo on some things without basis and I do it intentionally so you will get mad ...
 but I don't... remember that you fought back...not even once...

 TO tell you honestly, Iam not expecting something like this will happen.. not this soon...
 for when we talk before ... I am happy and enjoyed every seconds of it...

 I don't really know what happened...
 I even can't explain it...
 But I think some things were just not meant to be...not now...
 I am trying to communicate you badly for days...
 cause' I am trying and hoping that some things will still work out...
 pero nakisabay sad si PABLO sa panahon nato...
 
 I give an ultimatum for this..and now I think I will end everything ...

 
 Thankyou for everything...Thankyou for being so patient to me for years...
 thankyou for always being their ...
 wholeheartedly lending your ears whenver my heart and head aches
 because I feel bad and got mad on some things...