Monday, December 10, 2012

COURAGE





Courage is a hard thing to figure. You can have courage based on a dumb idea or mistake, but you're not supposed to question adults, or your coach or your teacher, because they make the rules. Maybe they know best, but maybe they don't. It all depends on who you are, where you come from. Didn't at least one of the six hundred guys think about giving up, and joining with the other side? I mean, valley of death that's pretty salty stuff. That's why courage it's tricky. Should you always do what others tell you to do? Sometimes you might not even know why you're doing something. I mean any fool can have courage. But honor, that's the real reason for you either do something or you don't. It's who you are and maybe who you want to be. If you die trying for something important, then you have both honor and courage, and that's pretty good. I think that's what the writer was saying, that you should hope for courage and try for honor. And maybe even pray that the people telling you what to do have some, too.

-michael oher- 

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Black & White

  




 For years.....I've been relying my life and time to you
 you knew my secrets, and I also knew yours...
 you accepted and knew every bit of my bad side and good side...but never give a damn word about it..
 Though were miles apart physically...but you never let me feel that way emotionally...
 
 I knew you're not into some cheesy words that can melt someone's heart...
 BUt your actions and efforts that you did for years are much greater ...much much greater...that really tatak in my heart..

 For years you knew that I have this attitude that I love being hated by others..
 I demanded and make reklamo on some things without basis and I do it intentionally so you will get mad ...
 but I don't... remember that you fought back...not even once...

 TO tell you honestly, Iam not expecting something like this will happen.. not this soon...
 for when we talk before ... I am happy and enjoyed every seconds of it...


 I don't really know what happened...
 I even can't explain it...
 But I think some things were just not meant to be...not now...
 I am trying to communicate you badly for days...
 cause' I am trying and hoping that some things will still work out...
 pero nakisabay sad si PABLO sa panahon nato...

 
 I give an ultimatum for this..and now I think I will end everything ...

 
 Thankyou for everything...Thankyou for being so patient to me for years...
 thankyou for always being their ...
 wholeheartedly lending your ears whenver my heart and head aches
 because I feel bad and got mad on some things...

Thursday, December 6, 2012

ENDED



I hate it whenever... I think about you
I hate it whenever our eyes met and for a moment we stop and just stare at each other
...no words... no sound...there's nothing...
I even and you also even can't smile or act like there's nothing is wrong...

I hate it whenever your with that girl
so plain stupid I got really jelly and I just can't help it

I hate it ...for liking you so much... for letting me fall for you for a moment and just leave me sa ere...your so damn unfair I told you not to do that!...but that's life dba?... :)
I hate it whenever I am near and I act like a stupid person...by not recognizing you all...
I hate it so much that you people knew and can read through me that I am so affected...

I hate myself for being so stupid- for always remembering and missing those times....
I am so martyr, and too kind at the same time bitter dba?..ako najud!


I am so helpless...
and this is soo hopeless...

I hate it that I got bitter because of what happened before...
I hate it that people who are close to my heart hurt me before... na nagresulta sa in.ani..
I know this is still my choice...
I totally hate it that we met when things and circumstances
between me and those people involved...were so "complicated" pa rin...

I'm shielding myself from falling.. from falling out again...
I just can't risk it...
I want words not actions...but one month have been passed...
there's no words ..clear words...nor actions...

I know that those times for you was just for fun...
Sabton taka kay I know what happened before... 
I even stalked you for awhile so that maybe I can even understand what you are goin' through
I even had read your post after your breakup with her...

For those people who are involved....Tomorrow would be the last day....I promise...
I will definitely end and stop everything... 


Sunday, December 2, 2012

pampered



for weeks I've been enduring all d pain
and finally after a long wait...
dli q loaded sa majors pero im emotionally , physically and still mentally won out #emotionallady 



#pampered @ GRANDROYALSPA


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